Hi Pete and Jared,
Since I was fifteen I’ve been struggeling with my religion. I come from a Dutch, christian orthodox community (protestant) and have never had a personal connection with God, because he was a God who only punished others.
The tough thing was breaking away from the community because my parents didn’t want me to choose another form of Christianity then theirs. But I’ve never had a close connection to God. When I was sad or lonely I turned to movies and books to console myself. God was not there. So I’m not deconstructing my faith, I’ve been deconstructing the dogma’s and religious ideas.
Since two/three years I’ve been listening to your podcast and that has helped me so much with finding a form of Christianity I could get behind and love. But I’m still struggeling with the believing part and being in connection with God. The intellectual thing comes easier to me.
I’ve searched your blog posts and listen to your podcast a lot, but so far I’ve not stumbled apon something in which you discuss the ways you guys believe in God and how/if he’s there for you or what believing even looks and feels like for you. Could you says something about that?
Sorry for the long message.
From a Dutch listener